#the little shake of his head in the second gif #the soft little ‘no’ #no— don’t ask me that#please don’t ask me how not to feel #because jim is feeling and jim is visceral and jim is emotion #jim is unbridled fear and anguish and happiness and power #jim is a full spectrum of every emotion that spock has pushed aside #and no #please don’t ask me how not to feel jim #because he doesn’t know how not to feel #because when he said that he pushed aside his fear #in the volcano when he felt heat for the first time since vulcan #when he pressed his fingers to pike’s face and understood what maybe his mother felt like in her last moments #he wasn’t feeling nothing #he was feeling too much #and the only way he could cope with that is to hollow himself out #carve out the feeling from his veins and make himself hollow #because he’s been taught that is honourable #(and jim has always been able to do the opposite) #(fill himself up with so much emotion that he bursts at the seams with light) #(and it’s spectral and unreal and intangible to someone who thrives off of touch)#so in this moment— no #i don’t want to hear you tell me you don’t want to feel #please don’t be like me #you don’t want to be like me #i don’t want to be like me #and i’d take it all away from you if i could #i’d feel a thousand vulcans freezing if you wouldn’t beg me that again #please don’t ask me what it’s like not to feel #right now i am failing. (tags via zacharyq)
04. Favorite episode from season one: The End of the World
Your inspirational valor and supreme dedication to your comrades is in keeping with the highest traditions of service, and reflect at most credit to yourself, your crew, and the Federation.
urls up for grabs
Dean “Anime Eyes” Winchester
i am the heart that you call home
Emotions. The grit on the lens, the fly in the ointment.